13. got him

1993 Aug 23 - 5 AM

When I went into my garage, I saw mom and dad smashing their against the garage door. It was getting bent enough that light from outside was coming into the garage... I think the door is busted for sure now, it can't be opened normally anymore.

It smelled so bad as soon as I opened the door. There was a lot of blood too.. I think my mom cut her belly on something and had been bleeding all over the ground.

I came up behind my dad first, and tried to loop the extension cord around him. But he was thrashing really hard and I couldn't do it right. I kept fucking up.

Dad was staring right at me and crunching his teeth like he was really mad and wanted to take a bite out of my face. I've never seen him like that. He was always really calm and barely yelled.

I backed up into the house, and separated him from my mom who was still messing with the door. He was really clumsy and I ran around the kitchen island while he stumbled over the chairs. He fell down in a way that really bent his back, and I could tell he had to have broken something there. He hobbled even worse now.

I rushed out into the backyard. It took me a while, but I managed to wrap him up to the crabapple tree. He's sort of calmed down now..

I wish there was somebody out there I could talk to about this, and ask what to do. I don't know how to help them, aside from keeping them from hurting themselves.

I need to get my mom next. I can probably tie her to the fence or something. I hate this so much. The sun isn't going to be good for them, but if I let them stay in the garage then they're going to let other sick people in.