I'm supposed to be able to share my grief, but nobody is around. Nobody is even on Everquest anymore.
Nothing is ever going to be normal again. I'm living in a time of plague. News says millions of people are going to die in the next few weeks. People who haven't gotten sick are supposed to stay far away from people like us.
I dug two holes in the back garden. I'm so fucking stupid, I didn't even dig them very deep. My dad's shoes are poking out of the dirt. I got them sick, and they didn't get better like I did. I fed them crackers and ginger ale when they were FRICKING DYING.
I'm the WORST son. I shouldn't be alive. I drank a cup of my dad's hard alcohol. Nothing is ever going to bring them back and everything is broken forever.
Fuck you, world. FUCK YOU.